Late-night self-assessment

I've been having trouble sleeping lately so i thought of analyzing myself and assessing all the changes i made for the last year, purely attitude-related lang. AND the bad news is, i've been going "downwards", meaning there is more bad attitudes than the good ones. Let's enumerate:

THE GOOD SIDE OF ME

1) I think i became a more understanding person. There are certain instances that i dont automatically react negatively anymore.

2) Firmer decisions. There are some decision-making i need to do in my family and i think they are giving me the respect i need.

THE BAD SIDE OF ME

1) Magastos! Sobra akong naging magastos nitong nakaraang taon! Wala man lang akong natipid!
- i opened an ATM account sa BPI by the start of last year. By first quarter, I was able to save up to 4,000 pesos pero unti-unti ko itong nagasta. =( I started saving this year again and what the heck, I lost my ATM card. =( it contains about 2,000 pesos...As soon as I get hold of it, I'll open a new account again. Ive realized that I dont spend the money I have as long as I dont see it in my wallet. It helped me having an ATM account. And I am currently thinking why, di ako nakapagsave by the next few months? Kaasar...

2) Tamad. Sobrang tamad ko lately that i automatically think of dumb excuses why i dont go to work today. I think this is more of disciplinary action towards myself. I know I can do it. =)

3) Selfish. I dont know kung dahil lang ba sa marami akong bagay na gustong ma-experience or get, but I think I'm becoming so selfish. Hmm..

After writing this, I challenged myself. I can change these. I know I can. I believe in myself. And then I prayed to God to help me. I asked him before to teach me to be patient, and I slowly did it.

I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me - Phillipians 4:13